Thursday [need to know]

i need to know what people say

when death is strolling round their bed

i need to know what words to use

when you depart... 

what should I choose 

to keep your heart...

loving ahead?

should i allow the tears to fall...

and let you see i fret your loss?

i need to know what song to hum

when you collide 

should i keep mum [a tacea]

and just abide [a astepta]

for you to cross?

i need to know how does it feel 

when you come back from death or night

no need to strive for right or wrong

for i am here 

and i am strong 

for you my dear

...you're my delight.

should i predict the same result

based on ideas that love brought up?

i need to see a heart that works 

not pumping blood 

but taking walks 

closer to god 

on mountains top.

i need to know what silence is 

and clear your mind of my own thoughts.

i need to give you something real 

and hold you tight 

be sure you'll feel 

the troops that fight 

to clear the knots 

...of my unclear

[I did have some second thoughts about it, thou...]

i need to know why do i need 

a daily reason to be true 

to smile, to love, to cry, forgive

and care for life

so I may live .

to end this strife

what should i do?

i need to know why i'm obsessed

with more than just a mere "I"

who dared change focus on your heart

for loving "you" 

i changed the part 

where i was true

and made you sigh.

i need to know not just the truth 

i need to know your highs and lows 

i need this "us" to shut my eyes 

in rest of sleep 

while this night dies 

and i still keep 

the dream i chose.

i need not feel afraid again 

and guilt i want never this nigh 

i'm scared of being wrong like this 

of bringing pain 

a sower kiss 

a "me" you'd gain 

that makes you cry.

[...i'd rather die]